Thursday, March 1, 2012

Long Time

I am such a failure at being a regular blogger. I'm either too busy having adventures or think that my life is too boring for anyone to read about.

I continue to be in love with Christ and love being Catholic. For Lent, I had planned on doing a pre-1962 traditional fast, but as I'm beginning to accept that I have a food addiction problem, the fast soon became a repast.

It looks like I'm going to have to buckle down and take this food addiction seriously and I'm being resistant. Envision a three year old's temper tantrum--that's the inside of my head. I mean, seriously, how can someone be addicted to food? How insane is that?

I'm not obese, I'm not anorexic. But I'm not at a healthy weight and I'm obsessed with all things food-related. Once I start eating something--like dinner--I can't stop until I'm Monty Python full.

I pray that God will give me the Grace to deal with this. It feels right now even more difficult than other sins that I've repented of. And gluttony is a sin, right? No matter how awesome it feels, or how harmless others hold it. It's one of the big Seven. I have noticed that sometimes when I'm praying or doing spiritual reading, my mind will wander to thoughts of food. This is surely a sign that something is amiss, disordered.

Pray for me, huh?